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Saturday, December 9, 2006
roller coaster life.
8:17 AM
its official. my life is really a roller coaster.
one day im so hapy, then the other day im terribly sad. its crazy.
FREE-DAY no classes day!
no one was online! ahhh! i woke up at 9 cause of Bruce! gosh! why does he have to be so hyper this early in the morning. he was jumping on my bed like a mad dog. i think he lost it. freaky.
out of my infinite and unbearable time of ennui, i decided to watch a movie. anyone who can guess what i watched? yup. a walk to remember.
watched it for the 9834801984th time and i still can't get over it. read my review about it from my older blog.
moving on.
boring boring day. yeah yeah no classes blah!
i just realized something. i doesn't matter if you have classes or not, what matters is what you actually do that day. and honestly, i'd rather go to school and hang out than stay at home. alone. with an extremely hyper puppy *ah! get off of my foot!*
doo dee daa. listening to music.
i rummaged through my old list of songs. god, how i missed those songs. old times.
geez! why isn't anyone online?!
my little brother wrestled me out of the computer as soon as he was home so he can use it.
here i am again,*starts singing* lying alone with my head on the phone, thinking of you til it hurts. something something but what else can i do? if tomorrow something something does it really show?! im all out of love! im so lost without yo-hey! i was listening to that!
god, my brother doesn't even want me to play songs on the computer!
what happens when im bored to death? i lock myself into a room and become a camera freak.
hahaha. freak.
after some weird sessions with my camera, i decided to force my brother into getting out of the computer. believe me, that is not as easy as it sounds. i have to make up excuses and such to get rid of him.
finally, thanks to my wit, i won. YM here i come.
someone went online! steph! and some people he he.
we were so freakin laughing at everything i don't even know why.
oh! one time, i was really laughing hard, then the phone rang. when i answered it, i couldn't say hello! i was super laughing hard. the next thing i know was that the caller was really confused so what i did was slam the phone back to the receiver!
wasn't that just weird?
my mom was so mean to bruce! she slapped him with her slipper! i kinda got defensive. i was ticked off. she was even shouting at him. she said that it was to "discipline" him in a very "didn't you know that?!" way. >( <--- ME NOT HAPPY. even when we were inside the car i was really glaring at her general direction even if she couldn't see me. * grab a tranquilizer quick! IM MAD!*
after church, i kinda felt a little calmer than i was sometime ago so put down all those tranquilizers.
gieka was online! woohoo! she just teased me during the whole chatting time. she loved my harry potter icons! come on, she idolizes me. she even wanted to start a blog when she saw my blog! hahaha! :P subic schmubic, i dont care.
but behind these laughters, i really felt incomplete that day. i don't know why but i felt so unaccomplished. i hate that feeling.
i wasnt able to sleep properly that night. the feeling ah! it was really late but i cant force myslef to sleep. shoot! remember! we had to wake up really early tomorrow!
SATURDAY
5:00 am and im good to go.
early? yup. my mom wanted us to go to church and finishe our duties on sat so we could be free the rest of the weekend. good idea! *gives star to mom*
bla. im skipping stuff. not like you care or anything.
YM IS NOT WORKING! FREAKIN MAINTENANCE! THEY DIDNT EVEN FIX THE VIRUS! well, i know that's not their job, BUT STILL!
you know i lost lots of contacts cause of that virus thing. actually, i deleted some of my contacts. some were really pissed at me like "WTF?! reformat your d*mn computer!" and i'll be all "you're a great friend." then i'll delete his/her account.
i might come out mean but, come on, if they really were my "FRIENDS" at least they can try and understand. they would actually curse me because of something i am not really responsible for?! so not cool. at least now i know who they really are.
viewed my multiply. watched some vids. look fo-oh! OH! RON! ahh! a video of rupert grint! me love rupert grint. LOVE LOVE LOVE. shout out to neil, whom i actually whinned at when the video he posted didn't have lots of rupert scenes in it. thanks! :P
rupert = cant even think of a word!
*heavy sigh*
great. back to YM. i was actually checking every 20 seconds whether it's back. yeah i know. i was THAT desperate to go to YM. it's hard talking to peole through SMS you know? steph and i were texting each other and i t was soooo tiring. texting wore out my magic fingers. and! you need to pay! hahaha duh.
which reminds me! my mom got mad at me yesterday cause my cellphone bill was so high! sh*t! how did that happen? actually steph told me to stop calling people through my cellphone but i couldn't stop it! im too lazy to text! why not call? wait i'll call steph to tell her to go online. hahaha im always like that. gah! must stop bad habit.
oh and if you're wondering why i don't use my "brain and heart scenes" here anymore, the reason is that im soooooooo L-A-Z-Y! i think you guys can live without that right? haha. riiiiiiight.
ok so after 5739459 times of checking whether ym is working, i finally got online! geez, why couldn't i just wait? because i cant.
here we go! *grins*
loading loading loading! TADA!
SH*T!
NO ONE'S ONLINE!
just great. guess i was the only one who checked up on it. ahh now im all alone again.
then after many times of trying to type random sites, someone went online.
someone whom i really i dont know. someone whom i really don't want to see or hear or talk to.
im not going to give names ok. lets call him/her (not telling) hmmm, *thinks of the rudest names on earth* how about whatsyourface. there.
whoa its been a long time since i have talked with whatsyourface and i want it to remain that way. although, a part of me just wants to i dont know, actually have hope and talk to whatsyourface but the other half just wants to end it as it is.
after mind killing sessions of whether to IM whatsyourface, a window popped out.
it was from whatsyourface. ah! what was i going to do?! whatsyourface was asking how i was. hmm lets try MISERABLE and you know why? BECAUSE OF YOU. after how many months of hiding and sh*t there you are. you just go and ruin everything again. being the polite, lying girl i am, i said that i was doing great fine happy. happy that you cant see my facial expression. HAPPY. :) see HAPPY. smile, smile. "oh.." wow, great comeback. well, im not going to post our whole conversation here but BOTTOM LINE. after that conversation, i felt, BLAH. i dont know what you call it. you know that really heavy uncomfortable feeling? guilt.
yeah can i get a large bowl to place my guilt in please? thanks.
guilty for not trying and for trying. for not hoping and hoping for something.
ah. i feel so confused. 0___0
cause you had a bad day, you're taking one down, you sing a sad song just to turn it arou- *smashes radio*
waaahh. i need someone to talk to.
hey! my little cousin is here! whew someone wo can keep my mind off whatsyourface. he doesn't deserve anything from me.
so my little cousin lightened me up a bit. he was taking videos of us through his phone. he loves his phone. gosh he's like nine and he has an awesome phone for a kid. ohhh and what's this? i was skimming through his video files and dig this. he has a video of his crush from school! awww! hahaha i was laughing so hard while he was trying to get the phone from my hands. kids. young love. reminds me of sh*t head. whoops. hahaha. mean bea. i know, i know.
he showed me cool sites from the net! really! go to heavygames.com. they have awesome games there! oh and you have to take the idoits test. sooo coool.
people were IMing me about my status and crap. i chatted with like 5 people and have to explain stuff.
i need to eat chocolates.
i had enough of the computer so i left it with my cousin and went down to eat. after eating dinner, i watched mr bean. gosh, even his stupidity can't make me laugh that time. oh and i was eating a hershey's bar! waah. too much.
cant get off my head.
i needed someting to do! i played the piano and repeated pieces for like 2837 times. i needed to get stuff off my head.
after which, i reutrned to my internet life. i wanted to chat with people but my cousin was so freakin nosy! he'd read stuff from my IM windows! i told him that i was doing my "project" but then once in a while he'd check up on me and say "project ha". shut up! get out! well, i gave up and told people that i'll be chatting with them later.
ah! KIM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Kim added me in YM! ah! FYI: kim was my supppper best friend since grade school! they migrated to canada when we graduated from grade school. *tear* our last REAL conversation was at the phone. she was asking me why i wasn't at her farewell party. ah! i wasn't able togo cause of transpo. freakin helpful parents. sad sad. i wasn;t even able to reply to her snail mails from canada cause of, come on, guess, DING DING DING! my parents. supportive, really. but thats rubbish! what's important now is that we can catch up on our lives. ohh boy.
lots of laughs and stories so little time.
when she finally signed off and my little cousin FINALLY fell asleep, thats when i told stuff about whats going on.
steph was there laughing at me (precious moments laugh), sorry inside joke, some people that might not want to be mentioned here like renz. hahaha. whoops.
i talked to a friend (might not want me to mention name, not sure, better be safe) about our lives. whew those memories. freakin 1st year memories. that conversation felt great but at first it was really hard to tell stories and such but then i got comfortable with it. we really opened our minds and hearts in that conversation. ah i'll stop.
i really learned a lot from it. i was able to know myself more and know what realy goes through guys' minds. never knew that i was so ignorant about it. one line from me from that conversation was "i never even consider myself as 'single', i consider myself as a 'KID'" reply was "kid".
STOP.
steph was still online. laugh laugh. i needed to laugh. our conversation was about whatsyouface and unrational stuff. we didn't know what time it was until we realized that it was already 1:00 in the morning. wow. my dad was actually scaring me about things about not getting taller. pfft. but when we realized tha it was really late, my mom buzzed in and was doing her sermon about how addicted i was to the computer bla bla. i wasn't using it i swear! *innocent smile*. yeah that would work.
well, its sunday today and i seriously have not done anything productive. loads of homework and CHEMISTRY long test. =:)
and thus et.
Ya dream is a wish your heart makes
